Rāmere, 22 Huitanguru 2019. Papatūānuku (Pachamama, Earth Mother) is a wounded healer. She's been enslaved, her energy harnessed, her body violated and raped, her natural sources tapped, destroyed, taken and yet she is the ultimate source of our life and our healing.
Many of us actively share her consciousness in our every day lives. Many of us feel what she feels and feel compelled to do all that we can to join in her healing. It's our healing too. Today is the day of 9 Ix/Jaguar in the ancient Aztec Mayan count of time. This day falls on the ninth day of the time wave of Cimi/Death.
The energy of the ninth day is related to cycles such as the length of a pregnancy being nine months. Death comes with birth and birth comes with death. Opportunity comes with challenge and challenge comes with opportunity.
Old cycles complete and new ones begin. We as human BEings are instrumental in this sacred task. To completely heal the huge cycle of the devastation, rape, violence, predation of our planet, we must complete it within ourselves. You'll seek to run, to avoid and perhaps to numb, but this will only prolong the experience that is surfacing to be healed now.
I am one with Papatūānuku and I am aware I came here in devotion to her evolution and to mine. This morning I awoke feeling very depressed. I feel the grief of my past too, and there was sexual abuse, violence, captivity, etc. This caused a fragmentation within myself, many years of deep healing, and a feeling of separation from Source with each dip into the density of the experience.
I am not a victim here. I face it with courage. Sympathy, judgement and identification from others usually adds to the pain. What is needed here and for so many people, is human presence, allowing, safe arms sometimes. Arms that desire nothing from the other, just temporary holding that may allow tears of grief to flow, and the passing through of pain.
There is grief. The grief of feeling like those loving arms are only there for those who have experienced only health in relating and have established the ability to trust others human beings. Wounded healers are able to access such sore points in our planet, in our bodies and in our being.
This is actually what makes us be able to go to the deeper levels of reality with others, not to fob it off or shift the perspective away from what needs to be accessed, allowed and interacted with for healing. As someone who facilitates healing for others, I feel it. I choose to be honest. I personally do not trust people who set themselves up as healers and portray to the world that they have their shit together 24/7.
Does Papatūānuku have her shit together? Well, she is doing her best under the bombardment she still takes from the ignorance of humanity who avoid her, turn their backs on her and continue to still rape and pillage her.
She's doing her best to connect with our consciousness so that she will not be subjected to 5G and further frequency attacks because humanity will not wake up, face what needs to be healed within their psyche's and let cycles of death and birth clear away the pain and suffering that is still there.
The awakening is in our response ability to heal, not to rant and rave at how bad things are while doing nothing about it. It's not in expecting an outer saviour to come and make everything all right. It's with us and only with us and until we do the work, we will not experience the freedom that is possible.
Papatūānuku is asking you not to distract yourself, not to numb yourself and not to doubt your co-creative abilities. She's asking us to join together in unity, to be real, honest, open and supportive of one another. I feel largely unsupported although I support others, just as Papatūānuku does.
We have a huge gap within our communities because there are so few who go to the depths of the shaman, the jaguar energy that sits alone in nature, connecting with nature, breathing birth and death through our hearts to assist Papatūānuku. There are just not many who are prepared to feel the wound so profoundly and be with it until it is passed through.
I'm very tired of being like the shaman. I'm tired of this aloneness, although I also acknowledge the huge growth that is found in it. I'd like more caring humans around me that I can deeply trust. I feel I could heal more when it is safe to cry in the presence of others, without judgement, without sympathy, without attempting to distract myself from the sacred task of healing, as one with Papatūānuku.
Only this way, will we see the true release of the enslavement of her being and ours. Only when we love one another enough will we know the meaning of being one with all that is. It needs to be a practical and tangible experience for it to fill our cells with the knowledge of loving, being loved and valued.
In truth we are all 100% valuable, but we don't treat each other that way. It's still not safe to be hugged by others unless we know that nothing is expected or desired of us. To be honoured in our place of our healing journey would bring healing.
So, let's make the most of the aloneness journey of the shaman and allow the old cycles to end, while it may be necessary to delve into the pain of loss, rejection, abandonment, abuse, violence, being taken from. Although we may feel alone in this, we are healing it together, as one with one another and as one with Papatūānuku.
I dare you not to distract yourself, not to avoid what is there to be healed and not to numb or direct your attention outside of yourself. This is courage, strength and wisdom that flows through our hearts with the capacity to heal it all. Let's be courageous, be strong and be wise and release the abusive cycles on behalf of everyone and everything - and so it is
Kia kaha!!! (Be strong, get stuck in, keep going!!!)
I encourage the viewing of this youtube video. These problems are real and a lot of this has been a part of my life. Because being targeted by your government is dramatic, people have trouble believing the truth of a person's story which causes greater isolation. Judgement is still very prevalent but no one should suffer, especially children. We need to heal for them and stop the cycles of abuse. Let's do it - and so it is.
Poppy Joy, Intuitive Health Coach, writing about health from my perspective. Available for health consultations.