Sexual integrity

There may be this rare occurance of sexual authenticity that some humans experience with another.  It's the day of 2 Chicchan/Kan/Serpent today, the challenging aspect of physicality and sensuality within the Seed trecena of fertility, maturing and abundance.

Sexuality has been highly disrupted for me and challenging with a history of traumatic abuse.  I've worked on healing this for many years, settling on celibacy after negative encounters that came up as part of my healing.

This is one of the areas of life I see as one of the most interfered with aspects of human experience.  It's so related to the foundation of our being.  Many pure souls were exploited for their sexual energy as babies and children in the fallen patriarchal world of power, dominance, fear and control.

Many young souls were shattered into pieces and have had to literally pull themselves together in an attempt to heal or whole.  Maturity is coming into a completion of all our soul fragments.  When we ripen into maturity, we lose our needs or expectations for sexual gratification provided by another and may find the bliss and peace of connection with the creator.  

I feel that this connection is what people are looking for in sexual connection with another because it has the potential to create feelings of bliss or that sense of completion that really only comes from our human maturity.  To me, human maturity is the connection with source, the return to trust in creation, the creator, the self.  It is the merging of the self with divine will in divine time with all that is.

The incompleteness of sexual connection may create fleeting and temporary feelings of the ultimate connection that we search for.  It is often unconscious or subconscious.  This incompleteness of the self adds to the social dis-ease of addiction, hunting, flaunting, flirting, manipulation, control, bondage, power over and energy imbalances of dominating and submissiveness occur, and the rest - what a mess.

He's attracted to her but she's not attracted to him.  She has needs. He has needs.  People seek to meet those needs, sometimes violently, sometimes with manipulation, etc., but for eons, in these times of separation where human will has over ridden divine will, it's turned into a polarised experience that is far from the purity of what it is to know and trust in what is sacred.

It may just be my past, but I see it as one of the greatest areas in need of healing within humanity.  When we know others as the true value of who they are, we would respect and value them in their authenticity.  In sexual connection, it would be the knowing that it is deeply sacred to share intimacy with the body temple of another.

People are conditioned to look for it.  It is seen as something successful to have a fine man or a fine woman by ones side, to produce fine children that have status and wealth that once again feeds that patriarchal control system.  Pfffffftttttt.  Where are any healthy results of harmony from this social construct?  I don't see any.

There's a lot of healing to be done here.  For harmony and balance to be created within this golden net of love, of the Seed trecena, perhaps we need to look at ourselves and pull any lost fragments of ourselves back into one and then and only then, approach one another from a whole and complete foundation.  Why look though?  Surely it's something that naturally happens in life at a point of maturity. 

I don't believe it is something to be sought out.  It comes into life rather than us seeking to go to it.  When we live in presence and know the art of BE-ing, we are content in each given moment.  It's natural to think about possibilities perhaps, but is this presence or being?  I'm no expert here.  As part of my healing, I consider such things.  It's part of my grief.

From a whole and complete foundation, there are no needs, no expectations, no obligations, no sacrifice.  There would be a deep respecting and honouring of ourselves and the other.  We wouldn't be hunting for the experience, taking and energy grabbing.  Hugs and touch wouldn't lead to taking or compromising our values.  Harmony and balance would result and happiness would abound.

Birthing a new Earth, out of an Earth that has been raped, ravaged, destroyed and pillaged herself, an Earth who speaks to me from her unconditionally loving core, so gently, so present, so whole, so ready for her time of celebration in her newly healed state as she rises in her frequency and loving power.  She is the divine feminine, witnessing the wounds of the divine masculine, wishing to heal him, to find him, to return to him in harmony and balance, but content and stable within her BEing.

She's eternally patient, happy in her own presence, one with all that is as she restores vital life force within her BEing.  She shares her consciousness with us.  She loves and nurtures us all through all she has been through.  Let's respect her body temple by respecting and honouring the body temples of one another.

The polar extremes of our life experiences may come together to facilitate the change within ourselves and then, and only then is it possible that we mature and become response-able with others and our own body temple.  Celibacy can be wonderful and fulfilling when we are mature, whole and complete, all the fragments of our being pulled together back into one. 

Sacred connection with others may be wonderful and fulfilling, when we are mature, whole and complete, all the fragments of our being pulled together back into one.   No one can complete another.  It comes from us and only us.  It's our healing/wholing journey.  No one else can do it for us. 

Hurt people will hurt people and also give the experiences that we may need to show us what we need to heal too.  I know, I've messed up in my quest to heal from the trauma of being a child whose sexual energy was harnessed by others.  It's been a lifetime of healing and only I could heal myself.  I now see that 'messing up' as opportunities that presented themselves for my healing.
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No amount of blaming, anger and victim mentality met my needs.  I had to delve into the void of my suppressed memories, my unconscious.  I had to honour and allow what was there and let it rise up, face it, shake trauma out of my body, rock and soothe myself in pits of misery.  I've had to learn to trust myself, to restore feelings of safety, to learn to sleep, to own my process and heal it myself and I still am healing those remnants, just as soooooo many others are too.  Only love is complete and only love wholes/heals.

May we restore sexual integrity as servants of Pachamama (Earth Mother). May we mature in this sacred aspect of life as the family that is committed to birthing the ascending energy of the new Earth, one with her as she rises in her loving, for giving, beautiful feminine power where all beings are valued, are equal, are loved, accepted and honoured as the body temples they are - and so it is.

​With love and respect, Poppy

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