Rāhoroi, 9 Huitanguru, 2019.  So many people have not had an experience of receiving love and nurture, especially when they are empathic or the healing kinds themselves.  When I was in my 30's, I had the opportunity to go and stay at a kind of a retreat house for women.  I was going through crises at the time.  The experience gave me a new direction in life.

I saw the value of what it is to just be loved and nurtured.  I had never come across this before.  It was new to me.  For a week, my meals were cooked.  I was given time to rest and just be.  I wasn't allowed to do the dishes or any of the nurturing myself.  It left a lasting impression on me.

I decided that it was something that I wanted to give others one day.  I finished my degree in counselling and was given the opportunity to co-facilitate health retreats for others.  Just being loved, nurtured and cared for gives a safe foundation for anyone to heal.  For some, who are used to being on the giving end in exchanging love, it was challenging.

It meant that the only one left to make use of the retreat time was the guest.  There was plenty of time for reflection and plenty of healing sessions.  This is what people respond to in healing.  Love, nurture, being and receiving is the energy of the day of the Aztec Mayan sacred count, 9 Imix (Dragon/Crocodile or Waterlily).

It's soft, gentle, feminine as well as strong, protective and primal.  I mean primal in the sense of being with nature and the elements.  The very masculine dominated world that we have shared has had an absence of these qualities. The strong and protective aspect has been more tough and lacked nurture or care.

Healing has been so often fueled by tough and harsh realities.  It's time for the ancient and feminine approach to be the basis of healing now.  Only then can deep healing happen and only then can people love like this themselves.

My dream which keeps surfacing and warming my heart in meditation is connecting with this possibility myself.  I used to have a retreat venue until the government and it's goons decided to try and take all that I had.  I see a return to it, but it's just one of the dangling carrot visions for now.

Nine is the tone of the day.  It is a tone of great cycles.  There are nine months in a pregnancy, one of the greatest cycles I could acknowledge as a mother myself.  I've been having the vision for about that long.  I hope it is going to birth itself.  Whatever happens though, I trust the divine plan to unfold in divine timing if it is a part of my destiny path.  It would appear so, but it's only an apparation at this stage.

It is my vision to be able to give healing retreats to healers most of all.  The imbalance of giving and receiving is very obvious here, and for myself included.  I've had the vision that the way may be found where it is something that can be given and valued with little or no need for monetary payment on the part of those who would come for healing, or a good rest to refresh so they could carry on with their service to humanity.

Only when the way is made clear to open up the ways of loving, nurturing, being and receiving care, will we see the change we wish to see in the world.  Only when we know what it means to be loved, nurtured and care for ourselves, can we love, nurture and care for others in a way that blesses them, creation and Papatūānuku (Earth Mother) herself.

May this way open up as the cold, harsh, clinical and loveless ways of old close down - and so it is

Rāmere, 8 Huitanguru, 2019.  To love is to be enlightened.  It is only love that will bring us to maturity and into self mastery.  It is only love that births our sovereign existence to the fullest possible extent, as we learn and grow.

Today is 8 Ahau/Sun in the Aztec sacred Mayan count of time.  I am being enlightened as I learn Te Reo Māori.  I take all my learning into my meditation space to feel it, know it and integrate it.  This knowledge of love and enlightenment does relate to health and this is ultimately a holistic health blog.

"Te wa," literally translated would simply mean, "The time".  Combine this with the sacred meaning of 'time' and it means to me, divine timing.  Time can be trusted.  Time has a purpose for human existence and time is involved with our process of human enlightenment.

People talk of time lines.  That feels really off to me, like the proverbial donkey forever chasing the proverbial carrot.  I see time more in spirals that uplift and build upon one another, accessing perfect geometrical points that connect everyone and everything.

Spirals have an upward flow that potentially take us to higher frequencies and states of being as we simply learn and grow.  Time is whole and full and all needs to be passed through to gain the wisdom of experience so we may mature.  We may trust in a divine journey in divine time.

Most of us know now, that it is great to have plans and goals.  However, these plans and goals will rarely pan out in the way we envisioned them to in the first place.  Plans are great because they give our lives direction.  They invite the events and experiences in that we need for our learning and growth.

I never planned to have a whole bunch of chronic illness and the need to have so much time behind my eyelids.  I took advantage of the opportunity in my own way and now I am immensely grateful that I really know the benefits of meditation and the benefits of withdrawing myself from the bombardment of outer information like the programming that comes through television, social media, etc.

I grew through doubting myself and what I perceived in meditation. Now I feel I have gained insight that works well for me, guides my life and hopefully blesses those around me.  We all contribute to the whole in one way another.  I would like my contribution to be beneficial to the whole.

In the stillness of meditation, we access heart knowing.  We may connect with nature, the earth and the sun as examples.  We real eyes the sentience of the sun and the light codes that it sends us.  We start to interact with it, to give and receive and it fills my heart with joy.

Without nature and the connection to the life force in everything, there is little hope.  People may become lost in fear (an absence of love) and seek to control their world which also means controlling others.

The guidance of our hearts is trustworthy.  It may become the foundation of our being if we choose it to be that way.  It will set our path on a divine journey of destiny towards our goals and dreams.  Our faith will be challenged, but eventually we may all come to see, there is a divine purpose to all things.

I've come from a background of severe trauma and had my life threatened many times. I am no nay-sayer. Now I see in my eternal optimism, that all was given to me as a gift so I could mature.  My dreams are big and the polarities of the experiences I have had are huge.  

Be filled with care about what you dream for, because you will attract the events in life that are needed for that dream.  It may not be accomplished in this life.  I meditate a lot and I am aware of many lives lived towards the big dream I have brought through them all.  It's a journey towards a destination.  It is a destiny path.

The sun enlightens us as we are open to receive the nature of this divine light.  Sing to the sun, salute it if you're into yoga, put your intentions out to it.  We are one with the sun.  Our enlightenment is a part of a greater conscious enlightenment.  We all contribute.

May we be blessed in maturing in the ways of love as we are enlightened by the events that we encounter.  Love is a total sum of every experience.  Let's not confuse it with romance.  Love guides us, protects us and ascends us up in divine time.  Miracles abound when the heart leads our lives.  May we continue to grow in enlightenment.

And since this is a health blog, I'm putting in my favourite organic vegan smoothie recipe today.  It's filled with the goodness that the sunshine brings.  It fuels my day and blesses my health. May it bless yours too if you like it.
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This website is a blast from the past for me (click on this link). It was my blog on some of my journey of healing cancer naturally. I feel I have some great experience to be a holistic health coach now.

Rāpare, 7 Huitanguru, 2019.  Today is 7 Storm/Cauac in the Aztec Mayan sacred count of time. Detoxification and healing is a strong energy of this sign and 7 is the mid-point of reflection of any trecena (13 day time spiral ;) ). 

Love and blessings to all - good health - and so it is

Rāhina, 4 Huitunguru, 2019.  4 Cib/Owl in the Aztec Mayan sacred count of time.  Wisdom comes into form today, from the foundation of our home lives and relating with others.  Trust - so what is it we trust in?

Let's look at one of the greatest mind control programmes that has muchly overridden nature's lore, Papatūānuku's (Earth Mother's) freedom and ours simultaneously.  It's 'writ'ten on U.S. federal reserve notes, "In God we trust" and it's right on the money, the mon-eye that sought to place itself at the point of the pyramid to harness the energy of G-gold, O-oil and D-drugs.

How often is the word "GOD" referred to now?  Allow yourself to feel into the vibration or frequency of this word, then feel into other words, like 'creator', 'great spirit', 'Ahau', 'I am', and then let all the words go, return to your heart and feel the peace of your own being and know who you are.

Trust is found in the peace of the heart.  Peace remains in nature.  Division or this experience of separation, is the opportunity that we may wisely use to come to maturity.  We may return to trust what is the most sound and stable presence of our existence.  It's our mother planet that we chose to be with and grow with and learn.

I've come up against a common theme again, and that is where value is placed.  When money is not a great source of one's reality, and still one seeks to give, the value of the giving goes largely unseen because no one is getting paid. 

There are those who are able to appreciate and receive giving void of money, but it seems that many would still like to hold others in some kind of form of permanent indebtedness, no matter how much is given in other ways.  

Those who can receive other forms of giving seem to have a greater foundation of trust in a divine plan that flows above and beyond the mon-eye system.  Their vision extends beyond the socially conditioned strongholds that money, competing, status, possessions, etc., are the limits of value.  

The legal system have taken the word "trust" and turned it into money management systems with word spells that are imposed on others and have a strong hold, but only because people allow it to hold. 

The heavy weight of legal bullies who enforce and police it with power over or legislate it as a heartless tool are still given power, because people perhaps have not come to a place of maturity yet, to govern themselves and live a wise sovereign existence.

Anarchy which is simply the absence of rule also is a word that comes with a programmed punch and has people imagining riots, upheaval, violence etc., but in reality a return to natural lore without the power of the heartless ruler could bring us all back to peace and unity. 

If we lived by the wisdom and knowing of our hearts, we'd naturally love and care for one another. There are still some indigenous tribes who live this way and while the mind controlled among us keep persisting with government and legislative control, their lives become more at risk.  These tribes could be our role models and we could learn from them, for the health and wellbeing of ourselves and Papatūānuku.

We are in transition.  People can become quite terrified when it is suggested that we could live without government.  However, there was a time when we did.  In my country, it was probably more recently as the colonisation happened in the 1800's here. 

Until some big event happens leaving us real-eyesing what is real, we still need to find ways to share and private and agreeable exchanges are still needed with money for survival, but hopefully not for too much longer.  I'm not sure how much longer our planet can sustain it.  She's wise though and she knows what to do, how to do it and when.

The memories of the indigenous tribes of my country here are still fresh as memory written on DNA is passed on from one generation to the next.  It is also present from the ancient memories we may access as wise, conscious and aware human beings. 

We can be the change by returning to natural lore, connecting directly with nature and being one with the divine will of the creator, the I am, who is not separate from us in reality.  In my connection with Papatūānuku, she is constantly bringing me back to this, speaking personally with me and guiding my process in it.

Young babies and children are now being born who remember and have great wisdom.  They fall prey to social conditioning, unless they are guided to live by natural lore, to discover and play and interact with what is real.  Otherwise they are subject to the fictitious illusion that leads to slavery and oppression for all those at the so called bottom of the food chain while others move around freely, but walk on others to do so, whether they are aware of it or not.

We can start to undo the damage by where we focus our attention.  We can find other ways where true value is appreciated for what it is.  Competition is deleted from the equation this way.  Unless all of us have direct access to what nature so abundantly gives, we are not free.

May we bring form to the freedom possible within the wisdom of self governance from the heart, to live it to the best of our ability and love like Papatūānuku does - and so it may be - if we choose

Rāhoroi, 2 Huitunguru, 2019.  This is my write up on health, fuelled by the energy of 2 Ix/Jaguar (the day of the Aztec Mayan sacred count of time).  I'm writing today about the current theme and how perception can be an over'looked' aspect of health.

So firstly, many people have what is called a reading disability such as dyslexia and the less commonly known, Irlen Syndrome.  I was diagnosed with having a severe case. People don't believe me when I try to explain this, because I write so well.  Some people even go so far as to assume and try to tell me how my life is without actually living it.

It seems it is difficult for them to comprehend that I have a HUGE struggle with reading, so my output certainly exceeds my input in the writing/reading exchange of communication.  So, Ix, the shamanic jaguar energy, on the polarising and challenging day, being the second day of the Ben/Reed trecena is calling this forth from me today.  It is facilitating some change.

Jaguar can sit in stillness and meditation, alone in nature.  The energy of nature is pure and congruent.  It doesn't lie, manipulate or control.  It's my favourite place to BE.  For me, it's humanity that is the challenge and has been all of my life.  I am human too, so therefore a challenge to myself.

Irlen's syndrome has been labelled and classified but I have a very different take on it.  As someone with a severe case, finding myself constantly having to explain to others why I have such difficulty communicating with the 'writ'ten word, well, it's really challenging to me. 

It means I cannot maintain having friends or connections the way many people do.  It means a lot of confusion because I see and feel the energy that comes with words.  I feel the incongruency that comes only from humans who have been a big part of this living by human will experiment.  I feel it is just about due for completion. Bring it on!!!

I see people chop and change, defend and pretend sometimes.  They may try to restory what was said to suit them and make up for their own insecurities.  I see it all though and just have to sit with things.  I just know what I know and what I see and allow myself and others to grow out of it all as we continue to evolve.  I try to do this with as much love as I can.  It's a real challenge though. It's bloody frustrating, to be honest.

Animals and nature are not addicted, manipulated, controlled or influenced by the written word or unnatural things like radios, televisions, the internet, screen information, etc.  Nature is what it is and it seeks to thrive.  It thrives best in the absence of low frequencies and energy signals that distort and harm.

I see energy.  How do I explain that?  It is like explaining what colour is to someone who is blind or what sound is to someone who is deaf.  The really cool thing about these so called dis-ABILITIES is that other abilities take over and other intelligence kicks in.  Systems seek to balance and harmonise themselves.

For me, it is the most difficult to read the most energetically distorted writing.  I guess I am one of the lucky ones, as lonely and isolated as my world can be, because I get to know truth.  I have been blessed to have a dog in my life and to know her intelligent ways, the simplicity of life, the natural interaction she has with nature.  Our happiest times are out there in it.

I also have got to meet the 'odd' person who lives life from the heart and not the head and is therefore living a life that is far more congruent that most humans do, as I 'see' it.  It's ironic that the 'odd' and 'weird' ones in this world are the ones who live life more from the heart than the head.

Perception is a personal thing.  As a young child, I could see truth in energy.  I think I must have frightened adults around me.  I must have as I was met so often with hostile responses to my innocent remarks and so sternly told over and over again, "No, that is not how it is, it is like this." 

So, it caused me to doubt myself and I spent a lot of my adult life asking others, "Is this how it is?"  I didn't trust my ability to 'see'.  Doubt and uncertainty claimed a large space in my life.  As I healed, I have been clearing these away and starting to 'see' again through the perception that I was given to 'see' with in the first place.

Why is this important to write about now?  Well, so many young children are now being born 'seeing' energy too and being sensitive to frequencies.  These so called reading disabilities are on the increase.  It's a process of evolution.  I 'see' and feel the energy of young children and babies.  So often, they are more evolved and wise than their parents and teachers. 

It is sad to see the doubt and uncertainty crowd in on them as they grow and are affected by ignorant social conditioning that comes out of human will separated from natural lore and divine will.  Humans are incongruent.  So often, their words don't match their deeds. 

Words and deeds - the basis of one of the most harmful man-made tools on earth.  They are the basis of legislation.  The energy or frequencies of legislation are the most highly distorted ones I have 'seen'.  They have captured our planet, captured creation and brought it to destruction.

I'm friggin' happy in some ways to not be able to read such shite and corruption.  It is not a part of nature and it was not a part of any indigenous culture either.  I've been learning Te Reo Māori.  I'm learning it only because the very land I walk and exist upon here now is calling it forth in me and it is part of my returning to natural lore.

It's not calling it forth in written words either. It was never a written language in the first place. It's calling itself forth in energy or frequency.  The energy of it resonates at an incredibly higher frequency than English, Latin or Legalese.  Many people do not real-eyes that Legalese is a language.  It is defined as, "language used by lawyers and in legal documents that is difficult for ordinary people to understand."

Why, because it is manipulative, controlling, destructive and opposed to what is good and natural.  It is the output of human will separated from great spirit, creator, life force, mauri, chi, prana or whatever 'word' best describes it for you.  It's a totally different frequency than anything that seeks to exist without it.  That's for sure.

It's the remnants of the hold of the mind who had to seek to survive in artificial and controlled (governed) worlds.  The challenge is to let the mind go and have the heart lead and this is my challenge just as much as it is anyone else's too.

It is no surprise to me now, that the first words that I heard the land here say to me, were "kanohi ki te kanohi".  This means face to face in Te Reo Māori.  This is a natural way.  This is how we may BE in pure presence with others.  If we take away all these low frequency words of distortion and connected with one another with our hearts, we would be free.

Papatūānuku, my ultimate role model in loving and giving may just come up with something to save herself and those who are more united with her.  She may just do something that would destroy the power of the written word and the illusion that money controls everything.  She may reject the word manipulation and control games completely.

She is a sentient, intelligent, loving and living being and she interacts with other sentient, intelligent, loving and natural beings like the sun, planets and other heavenly bodies.  To save herself and end this human experiment gone mad, maybe she will quake massively or maybe the sun will hurl out a huge mass coronal ejection and stir up all the magnetics to cause the change we need. 

We need change to happen in order to return us to natural lore and get off of all these artificial bandwagons that are paths to destruction.  Polarities are changing.  It's inevitable and an interaction with human consciousness.  We are the change.

Maybe, a masculine heavenly body travelling in haste on a mission will come by super close and pull the last of the false grid matrix away from Papatūānuku's being and allow the newly formed natural crystalline grid of super high frequency to take over. This is potentially a grand returning to nature. 

For those who have the essence of this matching frequency, it's not going to be a problem.  We know our soul goes on and on no matter what happens.  We are not so upset by the mass exodus of souls leaving the planet now.  We know there is a divine purpose in it and can trust that.
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Our frequency will maintain itself as it is and what is of matching frequency will be attracted to us. I saw this in a vision, but them I'm weird like that and I really don't give a rats ass any more as to how others perceive me. 

I am here in service and one with Papatūānuku to the best of my ability.  I don't need or want another human to complete or fulfill in any area of life.  I know I can work on trusting and growing in relating with all my human relations.  I'm working on it.  I am a human being who is evolving just like you are.

The full light of truth will be 'seen' by all in due time.  May whatever it is that needs to happen for the RETURN to natural lore, the freedom of our home planet, Papatūānuku (Pachamama, Earth Mother) happen NOW in the unfoldment of the great divine plan - and it is - LOL!!!