We harmonise in order to survive, modelling instinct as we seal the store of life force with the galactic tone of integrity. We are guided by Red Moon’s power of universal water.
It is an integration day, this eighth day of the White Mirror wavespell. We progress on our journey down the mystic column, the central resonant column of the Tzolkin. My writing is late today because I’ve actually just been busy living the energies of this day, having integrated what was felt in my spine overnight and this morning.
I was galactivated into healing this morning as my recent back injury grabbed my attention in both a physical and emotional way and a migraine was starting to set in. Breathing into it made me aware of the sense of stuckness I had, a hold on my spine behind my heart, that I was begging to be released. As I breathed into it and was assisted by a friend, I had very profound memories from ancient times.
I had listened to a radio show (Video below) last night with my friend and connected a few dots from it. I had previously worked with the Lyran Trauma as Jay Pee calls it when the show originally was released. I had the memory back then. I also had a skype session with Jay Pee and learnt some of his process. I recommend it to you all.
I was ready to go deeper into the trauma of all traumas last night and this morning, and so I did. My spine and the power of universal waters that Red Moon brings to us through emotional sensitivity and expanded consciousness did guide me.
Red Serpent is very physical. Our physical being will guide us to what we have to integrate now and Red Moon is highly sensitive and emotional, so our emotions will guide us in our integration as well.
We created our traumatic existence. The trauma was a violent separation from our divine state of love, joy, peace and freedom and the ones we truly loved and connected with in our bliss. We may have also witnessed the terror and violence that our loved ones went through. That felt more painful to me than my own experience.
We have created all of these experiences for some mysterious reason that I am not sure of. What I do know though is that we did it for our highest good. Now we need to forgive ourselves and release any guilt we may have taken on in that fall.
Now is the time to integrate and forgive ourselves for our co-creation, for our fall from innocence. It is only the remnants of this now that may be left. I spent time on this one over a year ago going into the pain and the memories and perhaps now it is more complete. My intention is for it to be complete.
Today as I went through my healing process, I remembered many scenarios. All of the scenarios shared the theme of violence, separation, aggression, abuse, captivity except for the origin from where it was created, the memory of bliss of being before the traumatic event that happened to us all. We are each a sum of the all. Forgiveness needs to infiltrate all that we love and all that we fear and bring it into harmonious balance.
As soon as we have no more opponents, we are free. As soon as we release the need to fight or exert defensive, passionate force anywhere, we are free. As soon as the fragmented parts of our being are integrated, reassured and held with love, we are free.
We all heal ourselves on behalf of the collective. I am grateful that I had a friend with me who could assist me this morning and accept me in my pain. Sometimes just knowing someone is there with us helps us to access the depths we need to in order to heal.
I am grateful to the little dog who also came and snuggled up to me and licked my hand while I was in my pain. I am grateful to each and every one of you who heals their pain and forgives yourself. Onwards and upwards we rise as we integrate and harmonise as one.
May we harmonise in order to survive as we access the physical and emotional aspects of our being, and forgive ourselves for our fall from innocence so that we may return to the blissful state of originality we once knew, that place that feels like home that exists in ourselves as an integrated whole – and so it is.
Survive Instinct Life force
Harmonise Model Integrity
In lak’ech ala kin
Thank you for giving what you can so I may continue to write for free for Pachamama. In lak'ech.